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Gambit2588
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Name: Mark
Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Harrisburg
Birthday: 11/8/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Singing, talking, listening, video games, movies, playing guitar, driving my car, hanging out with friends, being crazy with friends.
Expertise: Singing, Listening to what ever needs to be listened to.
Occupation: Sales
Industry: Retail
Message: message me
AIM:  gambit2588
ICQ:  WTF?
Yahoo:  gambit255
Member Since:
11/25/2004
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| Rain for me was once used to calm the senses.
A way to set at ease my mind and drown myself in the endless sounds of raindrops.
Now the rain is only there to hide the tears.
Knowing that the love that used to be there is gone.
Like a knife eviscerating my heart.
Just knowing that there is nothing,
Nothing left that i can do...
No way to make reborn what has been lost is the worst of it all.
Seeing that face... those eyes.
The eyes like stars now peer down upon me,
Though the beauty is there, its no longer for me.
All i see is the emptyness left inside of me.
Now drained... my heart ceases to beat...
I am nothing... | | |
| how do you bring a smile that just isn't there... how can you make something right that you don't know how to fix. how do you make everything just feel right again.... i don't know, i need to know... i need help. i don't know what to do or what to say.
~God i hate myself | | |
| i hate myself......i honestly truly do... i just do.....i am a bad horrible person. and no matter what any of you say it wont change the fact... that i am a bad person. i don't think before i speak... i hate it. i need to change. everything needs to change, just about me. i'm incredibly stupid and don't think. i hate myself. things are just falling apart. they are all my fault. my relationship with my father, with my brother... and most importantly with my girlfriend. i love her to death... but i mess up by not thinking before i speak. i wish i could just reboot myself, with better prgramming like a computer. i wish i could hit redo or undo on things and learn from them. things are falling apart... i am falling apart. i need help. i honestly just need help. i need to be better then who i am. i need to do it, if noone else but for me... but i need to for other people too. i am just losing things i tried so hard for... i'm loosing someone who i love... and i mean LOVE... i need someone to just HELP ME! PLEASE SOMEBODY HELP ME! | | |
| how do you fix something, that you aren't sure how to fix... and all the answers have esacped you? i don't know. but right now i wish i did. | | |
| She smiled in a big way, the way a girl like that smiles
When the world is hers and she held your eyes
Out in the breezeway down by the shore in the lazy summer
And she pulled you in, and she bit your lip, and she made you hers
She looked deep into you as you lay together quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer
But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on
And she combed your hair, and she kissed your teeth
And she made you better than you'd been before
She told you bad things you wished you could change in the lazy summer
And she told you, laughing down to her core, so she would not cry as she lay in your lap
She said "nobody here can live forever, quiet in the grasp of dusk and summer"
But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough to hang on
She said, "no one is alone the way you are alone"
And you held her looser than you would have if you ever could have known
Some things tie your life together, slender threads and things to treasure
Days like that should last and last and last
But you've already lost
When you only had barely enough of her to hang on
I love her, and nothing will take that away | | |
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